haven't really been in much of a studying or playing mood lately.
sometimes it seems like once one thing goes wrong, everything goes wrong. some say it's because you're already in a pessimistic mindset, so the normal dips in life become seemingly catastrophic. others say it's cause and effect; because you're sad, you inadvertently do things to cause more sadness in your life. regardless of which one you believe in, the common solution would be to cheer up, straighten up, and start fresh.
i find it funny that the only people who give you that advice are people who aren't in the same position. the people who have never experienced the same situation before due to some stroke of luck, or the people who have already made it through the hard times in their lives. sure, it's easy to say, "there's always a silver lining" if you've always been able to see the sky. sure, it's easy to say, just climb out" if you've already pulled yourself (or had someone help you) out of the ditch. but for someone who's so far down in the pit that nothing's visible anymore, it's a very different story.
i just wish i can take a break. just give me one week without the stress of failing miserably in school. one week for me. and maybe then, i'll start caring about things again.
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