princeton review's started, but i haven't studied.
i've found a summer job, but it hasn't sunk in.
my car's been fixed for a few weeks now, but i hardly drive it.
summer's 1/3 over, and i don't feel relaxed.
I just don't know how to parcel my time anymore. It's so easy to just wake up, make breakfast, go to class, make lunch, go to work, do some homework, make dinner, and have fun. But I don't even have the will power to do that. Instead I've just been going out every day and partying. Don't get me wrong, I love it. But because I don't take care of my responsibilities, I always hear that nagging voice in the back of my head.
You should have studied.
Get started on fulfilling your organizational responsibilities.
Learn some chemistry so you won't get fired.
Make your meals so you won't waste money eating out.
Have you called the people you promised to call?
Plan the events you wanted to plan.
What happened to working out, huh?
DAMNIT. All I need is a little more will power.
But all I
want is just to have fun. It's been 7 years since I've had a summer off. Where is this pressure coming from? Can't I just have a little fun without all this guilt?
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